Title: Personal Emotion Inventory
Date: 26 January 2011
Class: Theory of Knowledge
Category: In Class
For each of these questions, explore and justify your answers. Spend some time and be thoughtful with this. It should go in your field notebook.
1. List as many emotions as you can that you have personally experienced.
1. Sadness
2. Happiness
3. Guilt
4. Regret
5. Relief
6. Nervousness
7. Jealousy/Envy
8. Hatred
9. Anger
10. Fear
11. Worry
12. Disappointment
13. Moved/Touched
14. Shocked/Surprised
15. Appreciation
16. Disgust
17. Tense
18. Anxious
19. Excited
20. Calm
21. Stressed
2. Describe one experience of strong emotion you can remember from your childhood. How did it affect you?
When I was in Elementary School, this rumor about me was being spread about me not being trustworthy, and me being a bad friend. As if this wasn’t bad enough, I realized that it was the people I used to refer to as so-called “best friends” who were spreading this rumor. I was overwhelmed by shock, disappointment, anger, worry, stress and depression. Shocked, because I did not anticipate my friends betraying me, and saying such horrible things about me; disappointed because I thought they were better friends than that, and disappointed at myself for allowing them to think that way of me. I felt angry because I wanted revenge, worried because I was worried people will actually believe what they say and I wouldn’t be able to convince anyone that it wasn’t true because I couldn’t be trusted. With all these feelings, I became stressed, stressed to the point where I became depressed.
I didn’t want to go to school anymore when I used to look forward to going to school. I began to doubt myself, and ask, “Am I really trustworthy as I think I am? Or am I fooling myself? Am I really not trustworthy like they say I am?” I began to think “well, they should know me pretty well; maybe I really am not trustworthy”. Due to the empowerment of my emotions, I began to stop trusting myself, and let my emotions control my thoughts.
3. How emotional are you?
a. How intensely do you feel emotion (on a scale of 1-10, then describe)? Do you cry or laugh easily?
On a scale of 1-10, I think I would be an 8. People tell me I’m very sensitive, meaning I feel emotions very strongly. By watching a sad movie, I tend to cry. I cry easily but I am able to control whether I let the tears fall or not. For example, I can often convince myself not to cry, by thinking of happy thoughts or anything that will get my mind off the topic of crying. People can easily make me laugh. I can’t make myself laugh, but I laugh very easily when I’m around people I am comfortable with. I think this shows that I am more liable to feel a greater intensity of emotion around people I know on a personal basis.
b. Look back at your Myers-Briggs Type Indicator results. What did they suggest about how emotional you are? Do you agree?
The Myers-Briggs Type Indicator results showed that I value feelings but I tend to follow the rules and rely on facts. I think this is accurate because I find myself to feel emotions intensely, but I am still capable of deciding whether I allow my emotions to affect me (although this depends on how intensely these emotions are felt). I usually allow my emotions to determine the perspective I think in, but I am more dependent on facts and rules rather than my emotions.
c. Which emotions do you tend to feel more strongly? Are you more susceptible to some emotions and less to others?
I feel the most susceptible to sadness and worry rather than happiness and appreciation. I often tend to be a pessimist. I worry about the smallest things (what if I don’t have time to prepare for school tomorrow?) to the bigger things (what if I don’t get accepted by any universities?). If I don’t have a plan made for the day, or a time period, I usually start to worry and feel the need to start planning. Because of my excessive worry, I tend to forget to appreciate the moment. When I start to reflect back, this is when I feel regret for not taking the time to appreciate the moment given because this moment may have been one that I would never again encounter.
Once I reach a point of sadness, my whole thought process begins to think negatively. I begin to make assumptions (hasty generalizations) that lead me to feel more depressed. This is why I cannot be alone when I’m feeling sad. I need someone to help me control my thoughts because my positive thoughts disappear once I become sad. At this stage, my memories of sadness and pain reappear in my mind emphasizing this emotion furthermore.
When watching movies, I usually place myself in the character’s shoes. I watch the movie as if I am a character of this movie, and thus it makes the movie more personal and relatable. When watching movies, the movie is able to control my emotions. Depending on what type of movie I watch, I can feel happy, sad, or fearful. This is why I usually use movies in converting my emotions from one emotion, to another. For example, when I’m feeling sad, I will usually want to watch happy movies once I realize I need to be a stronger person. After watching a movie with a happy ending, I usually feel happy myself and look forward to the rest of the day. While watching movies, I would have to say that my emotions are not susceptible to a particular emotion, but rather, to all the emotions including happiness, sadness and fear.
d. How emotional are your immediate family members compared to you?
My grandmother (from my mom’s side) and my mom are emotional like me. I remember my last prom, my grandmother started to tear up because she was overwhelmed by how grown up I was. She got the image that I was getting married and this image brought her tears. My mom is also very emotional. Whenever we fight, she often feels so tense that she can start tearing up. Me, being emotional like her, start to tear up because I see someone else (my mom) tearing up. I feel that my mom, my grandmother and I tend to be susceptible to sadness as we can often cry easily without meaning to.
e. Has your experience of emotions changed over time?
Yes, I have learned to control my emotions over time in a more effective manner. When I was a baby, I would cry when I was hungry, showing that I could not control my emotions or needs very well. In my Elementary years, I used to cry very easily but less than my infant years. If I fell, I could not control my emotions, and I would let the pain allow my eyes to start filling with tears. I could control weaker needs such as hunger and wants, but I could not control my emotions towards pain. Now, in my High School years, I am able to control my needs, my wants and a degree of pain. If I fell, I could control how this pain affects me, but if it is more of an emotional pain, it is harder for me to handle. I believe in the future, I will be able to control these emotions too.
4. What physical responses do you have to specific emotions? Give some examples.
Our physical responses depend on our emotions. For example, when we’re happy we are more liable to laugh, or smile. By feeling this emotion, our body feels the need to express our emotions unless we are able to control these emotions. For example, when I’m feeling depressed, I would feel the need to cry, to express my sadness. However, by being able to control our emotions, we are able to control our physical responses to our emotions.
5. Can you control your emotions, or do they control you?
I think emotions control us but we are also able to control our emotions, it really depends on the perspective we view this in. We can control our emotions in how they affect us. We can allow our emotions to control our thoughts or decisions or actions but we can also leave emotions out. This is usually seen in businesses. Professionals usually need to learn how to make the best decisions for the company regardless of how we may feel towards the decision. In order to do this, we need to be a strong person. We need to learn how to ignore our emotions, for the best. But to determine what is “for the best”, we need to make another decision. Perhaps, this thought could be affected by our emotions which would then mean that we are not able to control our emotions, and that emotions control us. Thus, I have just contradicted myself. For this reason, I think that this question depends on which way we perceive this. Do decisions come first that has to be made in order to make other decisions, (in which our emotions would control us) or do we make the decisions (in which we would control our emotions).
6. Do negative or positive emotions affect your behavior more?
I think this really depends on the type of person. For example, for me, I am often a pessimist. I allow my negative emotions to affect my behaviors. When I’m sad, I tend to keep to myself more whereas usually I am a very out-going person. However, I don’t need to feel happy to be out-going; but I do need to feel sad to be more isolated and quiet. Therefore, I can say that my negative emotions affect my behavior more. However, if it was an optimistic person, this could be the complete opposite –perhaps for this person, the positive emotions may affect his/her person more.
7. Do you make decisions based on emotion or reason?
I make decisions based on both emotion and reason. I try to make decisions based on reason; however, it is often hard to control my emotions to not let it affect the way I think. I know I should base my reasons on reasoning rather than emotions however, my emotions usually determine the way I think. When I feel sad, I tend to think in a more negative way, whereas when I’m happy, I’m liable to feel more hopeful and happy. Therefore, I would have to say that I base my decisions on both emotion and reason but I really think this depends on how well someone is able to control his/her emotions.
8. Do you feign/fake emotional response? Why? When? Is it OK to do this?
Yes, I sometimes fake emotional response. I think this is OK if this is for the better. For example, if I feel disappointed about something that someone did, I may not want to show this to someone if this person has already had a very bad day. Instead, I may approach this in a different way. I may encourage someone to do have done something else, encouraging with a smile (an indication of happiness) rather than scolding (an indication of disappointment). However, if there are too much emotions being faked, this may lead to someone having the reputation of being fake, resulting in people to drift away from this person as they will not be able to relate to one another.